Friday night was i think the scariest night of my life. After the rumor of a “military coup” and curfew, we all rushed back home and tried to find out what was going on. Everyone was confused. Having listened to the coup stories from my parents, I was very worried for our future.

Two major bridges and the airport in istanbul were closed, jets flying very low over my neighborhood, breaking the sound barrier and sounding like they were dropping bombs nearby (that was the scariest of all), non-stop prayers from the mosques and call for citizens out to city squares against the military forces to protect democracy all night long (a coup to defend secularity or an islamic state? i prefer none), watching videos of the assembly being bombed in Ankara, they were all terrifying…

Many people died, many people were injured that night, and many like me are very worried and deeply effected by this so-called coup attempt and what’s happening after. coups are a horrible threat to democracy but being ruled by a party who was elected by the majority doesn’t always mean that the country is democratic either. for over a decade, people’s opinions, who voted for oppositon parties have been neglected, journalists have been arrested, media became government’s mean of propaganda.. i’m a minority in this country. instead of the army there was the police forces against us, against people who were trying to demonstrate just a couple of years ago. For this reason, i don’t believe the people who were out on streets against the military forces that friday night were big defenders of democracy. (Some even lynched and killed soldiers who surrendered) if so they would have shouted out for our freedom of speech that was being supressed by the police during gezi protests as well. instead they were fascists, very aggressive and happy that people were being killed by the police back then. (They are always fascists and happy when people who are not like them die, in İstanbul, in France, in Belgium, in Orlando, US…)

Democracy shouldn’t mean that majority gets what it wants and supresses the others. The minority’s voice should be heard as well. But unfortunately Turkey’s being ruled by one man, who was, yes elected by half of the country, but what about the other half?

He never listens to other opinions, and now the streets are patroled by his fanatics, which is a bigger threat for people like me. i’m sure you’ve heard the stories of people being beaten in ramadan because they were eating or drinking. i think it’s going to get worse now after they supposedly “prevented” the coup: the clash of two different lifestyles…

i already hear terrifying stories. after friday’s “failed & prevented” coup attempt, they see themselves as the paramilitary forces to protect and impose their lifestyle. Now even though hundreds of people are injured and dead, supporters of the government are celebrating a so called “democracy festival” in very islamist ways. i’m scared to leave my home. Terrorism, new turkey’s democracy defenders, perverts, rapers… i don’t feel safe or welcomed in istanbul :(

i’m very sad that we couldn’t manage to live together in peace with our different beliefs, ethnic & cultural backgrounds and lifestyles. Such a shame:(